THE TOTALITY OF MY DILEMMA

Written By Gaël Muteba

Thursday, May 5th, 2022 | San Francisco, CA


I’ve been debating my shortcomings. The fact that I am… Lazy and unmotivated. Even by the promise of what could be something so much better than what I currently have. And I’m really trying to beat my psyche into action, or at least submission.

I don’t know where I’m going.

And I think that, if anything, sums up the totality of my dilemma. If only I knew where I wanted to go… I’d be on my way, wouldn’t I? I’m not sure. Maybe it’s just bad habits need breaking, I’m second guessing everything. 

My goals. Actions. Relationships. All of which seem solid. They just require my faith, effort, and most importantly, my heart. 

My heart just isn’t in any of this anymore. And I don’t know what happened to me. Maybe nothing did, and I’ve always been this way…All I know is, I want to change.

I don’t want to be like this anymore. 




Gaël Muteba https://Kinshasawriter.com
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